jesus...help me.

all i have to do is find and claim who jesus says that i am...

jesus, i want to know you and who you say that i am. my love for you should get me to do more than any law ever could. i dont wantto be bound to the law like so many people are. i need to see your face and let you move me and transform me. help me seek you more than anything else. once i see you for who you really are i will become more like you. show me how to love like you love. break me from the things i hold so closely. break my heart for what breaks yours. please help me. all i need is you. i feel like you want and desire so much, but at the same time you require so little, and i have a hard time finding the middle of that. i dont want to be seen as a hypocrite to others, but also i dont want to be lying to myself. i want to just be. i want to walk in freedom. but i dont want my freedom to terminate on me. i want to rest in who i am in you. but jesus that is so hard. in a world of rules and regulations, it is hard to rest in security of who you are and in my love for you. so i gues this is just me asking you to help me love you. unashamedly. with all that i am in whatever it looks like. help me, jesus. cause dont know what that looks like fleshed out. i just need to see your face and look full into your eyes. but jesus, there is so much that distracts me from who you are. i feel silly when i keep asking you to help me, but i know that you can and i trust that you will. i know that you are mighty to save. so thats what i need. i need you to help me. dont let me continue to be weighed down by things that are not of you. break all the chains that have held me captive for so long. open my eyes to see your truth. show your grace to me in a way like never before. you have promised good to me. and i know that you are faithful.ii want to know who you are, so please HELP ME!! one day all this will be gone and i know i will be found in you but please, jesus findme faithful. it is so hard, buti trust you. i trust that you can and will do what you have promised. please sustain me. all i need is you. just you. thats it. dont let me forget that. let me rest in you. allow me to find satisfaction in you and in you alone. greater things have yet to come and greater things are still to be done in me. it has to be done in me before i can transform this city. so jesus, work in me. please, help me...

look up. remember the stars.

"We often ask God to show up. We pray prayers of rescue. Perhaps God would ask us to be that rescue, to be His body, to move for things that matter. He is not invisible when we come alive. I might be simple but more and more, I believe God works in love, speaks in love, is revealed in our love. I have seen that this week and honestly, it has been simple: Take a broken girl, treat her like a famous princess, give her the best seats in the house. Buy her coffee and cigarettes for the coming down, books and bathroom things for the days ahead. Tell her something true when all she's known are lies. Tell her God loves her. Tell her about forgiveness, the possibility of freedom, tell her she was made to dance in white dresses. All these things are true.

We are only asked to love, to offer hope to the many hopeless. We don't get to choose all the endings, but we are asked to play the rescuers. We won't solve all mysteries and our hearts will certainly break in such a vulnerable life, but it is the best way. We were made to be lovers bold in broken places, pouring ourselves out again and again until we're called home.

...covered in marks of madness but choosing to believe that God makes things new, that He meant hope and healing in the stars. i ask you to remember"

-twloha

i may fall down, but i will rise.
it may be dark, but God is light...

hm?

i'm in a hurry to get things done
but i rush and rush til life's no fun...

all i really gotta do is live and die,
but i'm in a hurry and dont know why.