light has come.

"When the storm is raging all around me You are the peace that calms My troubled sea"

storms dont usually bother me. one time, when i was in the 4th grade, i was in what is known around here as "the Jarrell tornado". it was an F5 tornado that travelled about 100 miles straight down I-35 and killed about 12 people and completely devestated everything in its path. keep in mind that 1) i was in the 4th grade 2) i was in the duck and cover position for about 4 hours and 3) 12 people were killed less than a mile away from where i was. i dont know what scared me the most...the storm itself, or the fact that i had no idea what was going on and i had no control over everything that was happening.

i think that may be my problem as of late. there is this storm raging in my life and i have no control. but you see, the problem is that i pretend that i do. i pretend that i have things figured out and i pretend that i know whats going on, when really, none of this is up to me. storms come and yet i still hope that one day the sun will come out again. i hope against hope that my dear friend was right when she exclaimed "its not going to rain the rest of your life..."

storms come. lightning strikes. and the lights go out. and sometimes all you can do is sit in the dark for awhile and pray that the light comes. and when it does, dont be foolish and ignore it. rejoice that the light is here and the storm is over. because dear friend...its not going to rain the rest of your life.